Ryann Reflections

A glimpse into the life of one anti-social stripper nerd.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Beyond the Neon podcast

In case anyone wants to hear me talk...

Johnny Wadd is an ex strip club DJ in Toronto and we chatted about the biz, Stiletto Storm, and other random stuff. If you want to hear me yabber for a while...

I find listening to myself weird but maybe someone else wants to...

Beyond the Neon Episode 3

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Thursday, February 07, 2008

Strip off the old block


Penthouse boss Danny Filippone hosts everything from stag parties and gay and lesbian nights to Heritage Vancouver tours at the city's most enduring night spot, which just turned 60.

by: Aaron Chapman
photos: Dan Toulgoet
Special to Vancouver Courier

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

On stage in the Penthouse nightclub, a pretty girl in her 20s dances to music, flashes a flirty smile and removes her last article of clothing. But there's no hooting or whistling. The audience is polite, and the aging and well-to-do gaggle of onlookers bear little resemblance to the club's regular clientele. Two older men smile over their drinks, while an older woman laughs nervously. "Oh, I wasn't prepared for this," she says.

Tonight's audience, largely composed of a Heritage Vancouver tour group, is more familiar with sites like the Orpheum Theatre than the Penthouse. But perhaps they should have known what to expect. The Penthouse is one of the city's heritage treasures. It's also a venue with a long history of surprising Vancouverites.

At 1019 Seymour St., the maroon building, neon lit with two painted tin dancing girls hanging out front, is now stylistically out of place among the modern condo buildings gathering around it. But having celebrated its 60th anniversary last year, the infamous nightclub looks to the future.

The Penthouse is one of the longest running family businesses in Vancouver. Current owner Danny Filippone has been a part of that history since his birth in July 1963, when legendary comedian George Burns--who was performing at the Penthouse that summer night--handed out celebratory cigars to club patrons.

The Filippones have been on Seymour for as long as anyone might remember.

"I remember trick-or-treating as a kid on Seymour, which is hard to picture now," laughs Danny. "There were just houses then. It was a residential neighbourhood."

The story of the Penthouse doesn't start with pasties and a g-string, but with the Filippone family's arrival to Vancouver from the Calabria region of Italy in the late 1920s. Danny's grandfather Guiseppe bought the empty Seymour lot for $1,400 and in 1938 built the building that would later become the Penthouse. Home to a number of family-run businesses, from taxi and courier services to an amateur boxing gym, in 1947 it became a restaurant and nightclub under the management of Danny's father Ross and brothers Dominic "Mickey" Filippone, Jimmy Filippone and eldest brother Joe Philliponi--his name misspelled by a customs agent when the family arrived from Italy.

Victoria Fox, a pretty, dark-haired, young dancer, has just finished her act on the original stage, which is outfitted with a curtain that dates back to the club's inception.

"I've just started working here, but it's hard not to know that there's a long history to the place," she says cheerfully. "The photos everywhere show that." The interior walls of the club are adorned with large black and white photographs of the Filippone brothers in the 1940s and '50s relaxing with Gary Cooper, Harry Belafonte and legendary boxer Max Baer, among many others.

And while Victoria might not be old enough to know who Frankie Lane and Jimmy Durante were, Danny Filippone grew up with celebrities as guests for dinner.

"I remember my father [Ross Filippone] bringing home Duke Ellington, Stan Mikita, Tony Bennett and others," says Danny. "Not only for dinner. They would have these big parties. Dad would host these casino nights for friends where he would rent all these gaming tables. I remember as a kid wanting to go to bed one night, and there was a roulette wheel in my bedroom. It was just part of the scenery growing up."

But a new social climate was already affecting the Penthouse's gin-slinging and swinging glory days. The impact of television and the novelty of free at-home entertainment reduced the popularity of nightclubs. That change, along with a more open moral climate, invited a shift from burlesque dancers to go-go girls with names like "Miss Lovie" and "Dee Dee Special" who evolved into the "exotic" dancers of today.

By the 1970s, with its Vegas glow faded, the Penthouse moved into its next notorious period. Out went the tuxedos, and in went the businessmen in checkerboard slacks and patterned ties. Vancouver nightclub-goers of a certain age will remember the Penthouse of the 1970s. Even my late father, a Vancouver lawyer and contemporary of the Filippones who'd worked for the family on occasions "to get some of the girls they knew who'd been arrested out of trouble," smiled nostalgically at this period. "It was sort of a smoke-filled unofficial city hall," he remembered last year, before he passed away, "where high rollers and hoodlums socialized with a lot of girls around." But not everyone was smiling.

"There were taxis coming and going with girls. It was a zoo," recalls retired constable Leslie McKellar, who at age 21 was plucked from the police academy for her first assignment posing undercover as a prostitute at the Penthouse. "There weren't many slow nights. It was the place to be in town."

The Penthouse had become the epicentre of high-class prostitution in Vancouver, a well known hangout that hookers preferred over the street corner. The club became a flourishing nightspot for up to 100 working women. "For years the police turned a blind eye to the Filippones," says McKellar. "I think there were too many crooked cops in the '50s and '60s that went to the Penthouse to drink, so the investigation was done outside of the normal police department by CLEU," she says, referring to the old Coordinated Law Enforcement Unit.

McKellar spent four to five nights a week at the Penthouse from May to August of 1975. She would leave the club with undercover officers posing as customers looking for sex, report her findings, then return to the club. She recalls observing a number of underworld figures. "The Filippones acted the best of friends with them," she says, maintaining an air of contempt even 30 years after the investigation. "I remember the Filippones always being around. You'd automatically think of old Mafia movies--always with their cigars. I never liked Mickey, but Ross was a classy guy. But I was scared of him because he was so observant and never missed a thing."

It's difficult to reconcile McKellar's description with the Ross Filippone of his later years. He changed his lifestyle and late hours, quit smoking and drinking, and became a racquetball player participating in seniors' matches and tournaments around North America and Europe. A spirited character, he died at the age of 84 in October 2007. During a number of Courier interviews prior to his death, he told stories about the Penthouse's golden years.

"The police were in two or three times a week," said Ross, remembering the club's early years. "Not just a couple of them--more like 20! It was ridiculous."

When the nightclub started operations in the puritan heyday of Vancouver's "bottle clubs," liquor licences were restricted to dreary beer halls, which offered no music or entertainment. Bottle club customers discreetly served themselves from concealed bottles, while cabarets served the accompanying ice and mix. The party continued unabated, interrupted only by police raids.

The Filippone brothers were in the right place at the right time. They formed the B.C. Cabaret Owners Association, with brother Joe as president, and lobbied successfully in support of a June 1952 provincial vote that allowed liquor in licensed establishments. More British Columbians voted in support of relaxed liquor laws than for daylight savings time--the other issue on the plebiscite.

At the same time, the family gained prominence in Vancouver's Italian community. Eldest brother Joe, with his infectious personality, humour and clashing style of dress, emerged as the popular face of the Penthouse. "Joe was a leader and very enterprising," Ross recalled. "One time Joe brought 200 Italians to a political rally. If Joe told 'em to stand up they'd stand up. If he told 'em to sit down they'd sit down. If he told them to clap, they'd clap. I always thought, 'God forbid if he went to the toilet.'"

The club booked a litany of entertainers throughout the 1950s and '60s. If they weren't performing at the Penthouse, celebrities like Frank Sinatra, Lena Horne and Errol Flynn (who dropped in the night before he died) headed there after a night on the town. On New Year's Eve 1975, police raided the club, and the Filippones were charged with living off the avails of prostitution, profiting from cover charges and tips paid by girls entering and re-entering the club after meeting customers. The club owners were accused of accommodating johns by providing cash advances on credit cards and company expense accounts for services of prostitutes.

The sensational trial played to a packed courtroom for months, featuring lurid details of undercover tapes, bribed liquor inspectors and Crown witnesses who were later proved to have lied on the witness stand. While never acting as "pimps," the Filippones were guilty of looking the other way. On one surveillance tape, Joe Philipponi was recorded colourfully commenting on the cash advances: "I don't care what you do with the money. [You] can go into a bank and say 'Look, I've got two prostitutes outside in a cab and I need $200,' and the bank clerk wouldn't care."

Wild stories circulated about the club, like the time the visiting Japanese Navy "invaded" the Penthouse in the summer of 1975.

"There were so many Japanese customers coming in that some of the girls learned quite fluent Japanese," recalls McKellar, who provided key testimony at the trial. "Word on the street was that there was a contract out on me."

The Filippones won the case on appeal. However, the Penthouse closed for three years while the court case dragged on. Vancouver writer Daniel Francis's book Red Light Neon details the history of prostitution in Vancouver and the Penthouse closure of the '70s. "In retrospect, everyone agreed the closure was a major mistake," Francis notes. "The decision caused an increase of the number of women on the street... and led as well indirectly, to the tragedy of the Missing Women." On the prosecution of the Penthouse, Francis writes, "Police drove the sex trade into the shadows, creating the conditions in which predators could flourish." An interesting theory, in light of the recent Willie Pickton trial and conviction.

"I hadn't really thought about what I was going to do," remembers Danny Filippone of his adolescence. "I was working at Kelly's records, and basically just into playing sports and meeting girls. Hey, I had just entered my 20s, just out of school."

All of that changed on Sept. 18, 1983 when Danny's uncle Joe Philliponi was murdered by Scott Forsyth at the Penthouse in an after-hours shooting. Forsyth had been falsely told by an accomplice, Sid Morrisroe, that $1 million sat locked in the Penthouse safe. The robbery garnered the men $1,200 and first-degree murder convictions. Over 800 people, including Supreme Court justices, businessmen and dancers attended the funeral of the "Godfather of Seymour Street."

Rumours involving the Filippone family and the Mafia have circulated for decades. The myth of the family's "mob ties" may have added to the Penthouse legend.

"There were characters like that around the bar in my father's day," says Danny. "I remember a guy named Shoulders and another guy called Big Nick who were tough people. Being Italian, it was hard not to feel that aura and having the last name Filippone. There weren't many other prominent Italian families in Vancouver. There were the Capozzis for wines and stocks, the Lendarduzzis for soccer and the Filippones had the nightclubs."

Danny vividly recalls, in the wake of Joe's death, being called to meet his father in the office. "He said, 'You have to make a decision. We have to know as a family if you're going to do this.' They wanted to know what direction things were going and if I'd take over the reins. I said I'd do it. My heart was in it and I liked it."

Danny, who began as a waiter and later managed the club, knew his uncle's legend loomed large at the Penthouse. "It was weird the first couple of years after he was gone. I could still see him around here and hear his voice. I have lots of great memories of Uncle Joe."

While Leading the Heritage Vancouver tour, Danny demonstrates his family's characteristic ebullience, as well as the unique Filippone-rhythm and tenor in his voice.

He leads an audience of 30 people around the Penthouse, offering anecdotes about each room.

The tour visits some of the upper rooms--usually closed to the public--of the deceptively large building, including the "Green Room," a time capsule of the early 1970s with its green cut-velvet wallpaper. The club's original grand piano still sits in the area of the club once known as "The Steak Loft" restaurant, named for the 1950s novelty of bringing raw steaks to customers' tables so diners could pick which one they wanted.

Even the roots of Vancouver's ubiquitous pizza slice shops can be traced to the Penthouse and Vancouver's first pizza oven.

"It's a unique part of Vancouver's social history," says Heritage Vancouver president Donald Luxton. "It is Western Canada's oldest surviving venue for exotic entertainment and a reminder of the vibrant night life Vancouver once enjoyed."

Danny is proud of the building's past, but he's tried to put his own stamp on the nightclub. The prostitutes are long gone, and the club hosts events like the Jazz Festival, New Music West, local bands, private parties, sports nights and even gay and lesbian parties.

In December, the Penthouse added one more party to its history of revelry--its 60th anniversary. Danny hosted a full house, including screenwriter Chris Haddock and Commodore Ballroom general manager Gord Knights, as well as local musicians like Crystal Pistol bassist Greg Laikin. As in its golden age, the Penthouse stage featured an array of acts, from burlesque girls to a stand-up comedian. Filippone planned the party with his father, who died before the event, but it's easy to imagine Ross and Uncle Joe smiling down on the affair.

"I think it's important to keep things fresh and try new things. Bringing music back is what Uncle Joe was doing--trying not to rely on a single theme. It's not a place where you just see exotic dancers anymore," says Filippone, noting Penthouse video music shoots featuring Avril Lavigne and Snoop Dogg, and the nightclub's frequent appearance as the Chick A Dee Club on the critically acclaimed TV crime-drama Intelligence.

The Filippone family story encompasses Vancouver's downtown real estate boom. Joe Philliponi's far-sighted real estate investments have paid dividends. A family-owned lot across the street from the Penthouse sold for a princely sum to a developer who will use the site for a multi-storey condo tower. Next to the Penthouse sits the oldest surviving house in Downtown South. Dating back to 1896, it's been Filippone property since the 1930s.

Fifteen years ago, Vancouver was home to 35 exotic entertainment venues, including Champagne Charlie's, the Austin Flash One and the Niagara. In the late 1990s, Vancouver boasted 4,000 exotic dancers, but that number has shrunk to about 200. The Cecil Hotel site has been earmarked for condos, and other Vancouver exotic clubs face an uncertain future.

Danny has seen them all come and go. "We might go back to us being the only game in town."

He receives regular offers from prospective buyers, but politely declines, noting the club's history and its connection to his family.

"We can paint it, and refurbish it and hold all sorts of special events, but the Penthouse will always have its past and that's what makes it different," he says, adding that restoration plans are being considered. "We want to make it look classic."

And yet, the building still gives up its secrets. Recently Danny unexpectedly discovered a hollow spot in an office wall that contained photographs of the nightclub in the 1950s and '60s, as well as very early photographs of the surrounding businesses and street life on Seymour. "I have no idea why they were there. My father had no idea about it, and we just think it's something Joe did back in the day, hiding the pictures away in the wall for safekeeping or something." Many of the photos are now framed and hang inside the club.

The Penthouse neon sign on Seymour Street still glows at night. One day the end may come, but the Penthouse has withstood everything from the vice squad to the wrecking ball for 60 years.

"We're staying put. We're happy. Our business has never been better," says Danny. And if the Filippones have any say, last call won't come to Seymour Street any time soon.

Heritage Vancouver returns to the Penthouse on Feb. 20. For more information visit www.heritagevancouver.org.
© Vancouver Courier 2008

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Monday, January 14, 2008

Club was a safe haven

The Burnaby News Leader interviewed me for this story the other day...

Show lounge closure saddens women who worked there

It was her favourite club and she would dance at few others.

The staff was friendly, the customers supportive and most importantly, she felt safe when performing there.

Now that it’s closed, Ryann Rain (her stage name) says she may have performed her last exotic dance routine.

“I was in tears the final night, bawling my eyes out on stage—really, really sexy—because for me it was the end of my home and I can’t dance anymore,” she said. “Mugs and Jugs was my bread and butter and paid my rent.”

As reported in the NewsLeader on Thursday, the College Place Hotel—home to both Mugs and Jugs and the Chicago Tonight nightclub—has been sold to BC Housing, which plans to convert the building to provide an emergency shelter and transitional housing. The closure of the Mugs and Jugs is part of a trend in the region, and Rain wasn’t alone in her admiration for the exotic show lounge.

According to The Naked Truth (www.nakedtruth.ca), a website devoted to Lower Mainland exotic dancers, New Westminster’s Mugs and Jugs was voted the best place to work in an online poll.

“They were a great staff to work with. It was like a family,” said Rain, 27.

Mugs and Jugs isn’t the only exotic show lounge to recently close its doors. On Thursday it was announced the Cecil Hotel was sold to a developer who plans to tear down the building and put up condominiums.

The North Burnaby Inn, the Marble Arch, the Drake and the Fraser Arms are some other clubs closed over the last decade.

But the trend of strip clubs closing is about more than these establishments closing their doors, say dancers.

Trina Ricketts, a former exotic dancer who founded The Naked Truth, sees it as the loss of safe work options for many women—many who are mothers or support loved ones.

“In the sex industry, a strip club is considered a safe-sex work option. It’s safe because you have bouncers, staff and no contact options,” said Ricketts, a South Surrey resident and mother of two.

The feminist and advocate for women worked in the sex industry as a stripper for nine years before leaving. She became an exotic dancer for reasons similar to many women—to pay the bills.

Ricketts said she worked numerous minimum-wage jobs, often more than one at a time, and still couldn’t pay the rent and put food on her table. With exotic dancing she could finally make a livable wage.

But she always had her boundaries—she was comfortable performing naked but that’s where it ended.

“For me, exotic dancing saved me. It was about performing, it was about art, it was about power and money,” she said. “But it wasn’t about having strangers touch my body. In that way, I find it really scary that exotic dance clubs are closing.”

Both Ricketts and Rain sees changes ahead with clubs closing down. And neither like where things are going.

Many of the remaining clubs are pushing things like lap dances or private dances.

“With Mugs and Jugs closing, we’re near the end of no-contact options for women making a living in the sex industry,” said Rain.

“For women that have to support a family, it means a lot tougher decisions for them.”

mmcquillan@burnabynewsleader.com

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Sunday, December 23, 2007

it's the end

I have so much to say and it’s been building up for weeks but the reality is I’ve been too devastated and angry to say anything more than “Fuck you all!”

Mugs and Jugs is closing in a week. Unfortunately without that bar I can’t pay my bills dancing in Vancouver and I’m not physically able to travel anymore. So I’m forced to quit dancing because of finances.

I don’t know what I’m going to do. I know I’m qualified I have the experience to do anything I want but all I want to do is dance. Every other job I’ve had has bored me to tears. I want to learn something everyday and feel passion and purpose in what I do. That’s what Stiletto Storm is going to be. But I have to survive and pay rent in the meantime. So I’m looking for a job. Anyone want to hire me?

Ironic isn’t it? The perception that strippers make a ton of money is so far from the truth in Vancouver it makes me sick. We’ve been circling the drain for a while now and I guess it’s finally happening. Politics is winning. The cities get to shut down strip clubs, take away safe work options for women, and congratulate themselves on doing so.

I should go paint the whole picture here but I’m just too exhausted. I look around Vancouver and what I see is a community at risk. Pickton is guilty. Big fucking deal! Women are still dying. They’re still disappearing. They’re still treated as disposable inconveniences.

And instead of protecting the most vulnerable women in our community the municipality prides itself on shutting down strip clubs and forcing women to make harder decisions. I’m already depressed and feeling desperate. All I have to take care of is my self and my dreams. I’m not a single mother—but a lot of my friends are.

The demise of strip clubs in Vancouver means the end of non-contact income for a lot of women. Think about that for a second. Think about it when you drive past one of the old ghost clubs. We used to be able to entertain for living. We used to dance to support our families, and our future. We used to strip on stage—safe. Those days are gone.

I have so much more to say… but I’m still too livid.

I’ll be at Mugs and Jugs Dec 27-29. I’ll be there to close the club and cry my heart out. We’ve lost so much more than a bar.

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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Silence of the Pigs

I haven’t said much about the Pickton trial. Instead I’ve been quietly and passively watching. I could rage. I could scream, rant, and cry but I don’t have the energy. I found this piece, Silence of the Pigs, by Bonnie Bowman to be sensitive and important.

Silence of the Pigs
Bonnie Bowman probes a muderous milieu

As I sit in the courtroom staring at the back of Pickton's head, I want to beat on the bulletproof glass that separates us and scream.
—Trisha Baptie, reporting for www.oratorio.com

Well, Clarice—have the lambs stopped screaming? You still wake up sometimes, don't you? You wake up in the dark and hear the screaming of the lambs.
—Hannibal Lecter in The Silence of the Lambs

If the Chinese calendar is anything to live by, we are now in the Year of the Pig. A sign of apparent good fortune, a year so fortuitous there promises to be a big jump in birth rates of “lucky” Chinese children. Coincidentally, it also happens to be the year that one Robert “Willie” Pickton, a sullen-faced pig farmer from Port Coquitlam, is on trial for murdering six women from Vancouver’s Downtown Eastside. Unless you’ve been living under a rock, you know he is charged with 26 such murders and suspected of nearly 50 all told. He is accused, and soundly convicted by most, of horrendous misdeeds perpetrated on his now-infamous pig farm. Fargo-like horror stories abound in the media as the trial unfolds: lurid tales of rendering plants, of human remains being ground up into pig food, of a meticulous and painstaking search for DNA in what is being called the largest forensic investigation in Canadian history. Yes, for better or worse, pigs are big this year.

I was living in Vancouver when the women began disappearing from the Downtown Eastside streets. What began as a worried murmur by those closest to the victims finally grew to an outraged roar as women kept vanishing and nothing was being done about it. Why? Because the women lived on the fringes of society. They were prostitutes, drug addicts, plying their rough trade in the poorest postal code in Canada, the scabrous blight on Vancouver’s shiny visage. If it weren’t for the relentless efforts of friends and family, street workers, and some intrepid reporters—notably The Vancouver Sun’s Lindsay Kines, who doggedly wrote about the disappearances and urged a police probe long before it became tabloid fodder to the rest of the oblivious fleece-wearing, cappuccino-sipping masses—one wonders if Willie would still be wearing shit-caked gumboots instead of an orange jumpsuit.

But now it’s big news, isn’t it. There’s a lot to talk about over the water cooler, it’s gripping stuff. A friend of mine says that whenever he accesses his Yahoo UK address, the Pickton trial is one of the top stories in Britain. “They like their gore over there,” he says to me, shrugging. Yes, the spotlight is on. Port Coquitlam, a previously unknown ’burb to the majority of Canadians, is now on the map. I have even heard people in Toronto, where I currently live, referring to the scene of the crime by its West Coast moniker, PoCo. People who have never been to Vancouver, let alone Port Coquitlam, can be heard referring to “the pig farmer from PoCo.” It’s fun to say PoCo. Let’s all say it together.

Having lived in Vancouver for 24 years, I have some idea of how this dubious notoriety must be plaguing the suits in power. They don’t like the Downtown Eastside at the best of times. They clearly don’t need international attention being brought to bear on their dirty little secret, especially now, with the Olympics looming large. From their point of view, it’s the worst of times for this to happen. You can bet they want this cleared up quickly, before the world descends on their doorstep. From my far-removed vantage point, here in the Centre of the Universe, I can almost smell their desperation. It makes me cackle and rub my hands together with wicked glee. And then I feel guilty, not because I am taking great joy from their anxiety (I most assuredly am), but because I stop and remember what is at the root of it all. Or more accurately, who. The women. Yes, the women who are getting buried all over again, buried in the salacious details of the trial by the water-cooler gossips, buried by the power suits who are on a zealous mission to clean up the Downtown Eastside (shades of Expo 86), and buried again by Pickton himself, whose weird habits and habitat are creating far more interest with the bloodthirsty than the lives of the victims.

It’s to be expected. Everyone knows the names of renowned serial killers. Who hasn’t heard of Ted Bundy, Jeffrey Dahmer, John Wayne Gacy, or, to put a local spin on it, Clifford Olson? Can you name even one of their victims? Here in Toronto, and elsewhere in Canada, many can name the victims of our very own golden-haired murderous duo, Paul and Karla. Maybe it’s easier in that particular case, there being fewer names to remember, or maybe, as many would suggest, the victims got way more play because they weren’t drug-addicted prostitutes. At any rate, unless you’re a reporter covering the trial, or in some way connected on a personal level, I challenge you to name the six women Pickton is currently charged with murdering. But you sure as hell know his name by now. It sucks, but that’s the way it is. The guilty are always far more interesting than the innocent. And in that respect, we’re all guilty.

A friend of mine, Jeremy Hainsworth, is covering the Pickton trial for Associated Press. He is there in the courtroom, every day, trying to remain objective to properly do his job. Long ago, he says, he stopped looking at the accused. For one thing, Willie is, by all accounts, impassive and seemingly uninterested in the proceedings. He doodles. He shows no apparent remorse. It doesn’t look like he’ll do anything bizarre, like start screaming and throwing himself against his bulletproof shield, or making lascivious, leering faces to the jury. He doesn’t do anything worth looking at, from a reporter’s perspective. Or maybe Pickton’s blank façade is far more chilling than any dramatic outburst could ever be. Whatever the reason, Jeremy says he simply can’t stomach looking at him anymore. He shared a personal story with me that illustrates how even reporters struggle to keep the women from getting lost in the translation, being reduced to mere DNA.

On his way home from a particularly grueling day in the courtroom, Jeremy picked up a copy of 24 Hours, a little freebie news rag. The cover featured photos, mugshots, of the missing women. On the top banner was a photo of Pickton. When he got home, Jeremy cut off Pickton’s face with distaste and wrote the names of the women underneath their photos. He then tacked it up on the back of his apartment door. To remind himself, he says, why he’s putting himself through this. “Every day, before I go to work, I look at their faces and their names, and I say out loud: ’I’m doing this for you.’ Their faces are the last thing I see before I leave each day.” Jeremy is not a saint, trust me. He simply understands that everyone needs reminding. As for doing his job, despite being affected and disturbed by the horror (Jeremy’s seeing a shrink), he concedes it’s a relief to finally be able to write about it. After years of being “in the know,” of being privy to the scuttlebutt on the streets and in the newsrooms, the agonizing lack of legal will, the frustration experienced by many at the interminably slow wheels of justice, he is glad it’s finally all coming out. He calls writing about it “cathartic vomit.” .

Settled in amongst the various media covering the trial are two very brave women committed to seeing it through—Pauline VanKoll and Trisha Baptie, both former sex trade workers who were friends with many of the victims. They, too, are covering the trial in a professional capacity as citizen journalists for www.orato.com in an effort to lend a been-there-done-that voice to the mainstream Pickton reportage. VanKoll and Baptie clearly do not need to be reminded about the women; they were those women. For them, this gig is both professional and personal.

From my knowledge, I am closer to the truth of how these girls lived and died. I was blessed not to have gone to the farm. If I had been, I could have easily been on the list of missing women.
—Pauline VanKoll

Before the women began disappearing, back in the heady days when people didn’t think twice about eating pork, I too spent a lot of time in the Downtown Eastside. No, I wasn’t a hooker and I wasn’t peddling crack ... sorry, that would’ve added more authenticity, but it wasn’t the case. I was down there getting but a taste of the scene, not the full-on feast as experienced by the orato-gals or anyone else who lived the life. I was venturing into the abyss on a regular basis for something far more civilized—music. More specifically, the blues. And what better setting than the desperate Downtown Eastside. Most of my friends are blues musicians, and in those earlier halcyon days, there were gigs aplenty at the various rundown hotels located on, or just off, the notorious Hastings Street strip. I spent countless evenings in seedy hotel bars like the Balmoral, the Grand Union, the Travellers, the Brandiz, the Columbia, you name it. For years in the mid- to late ’80s, you could find me down there, diggin’ the blues, dodging flying beer bottles, stepping over puke, and watching porn on the television sets while the band played on. “Sit with your back to a wall,” I was cautioned. It was good advice, the only drawback being your proximity to the brick walls—a perfect jumping-off point for the cockroaches.

There was indeed a lot of nastiness going down in the ’hood, nobody could argue otherwise. On any given night, blood was spilled. Take-downs were frequent, and cops wearing black leather gloves could be witnessed wielding their efficient chokeholds in the middle of the bars while patrons either glared at them or sprinted out the back door. Paramedics were everywhere, kneeling on the streets, shooting Narcan into wasted limbs, bandaging up wounds, or trundling people around on stretchers. The revolving lights from cop cars and ambulances, combined with the gaudy neon hotel signs, lit up Hastings Street like a carnival from hell. Naturally, drugs were omnipresent, mostly heroin in those days, either being sold or bought or openly injected, in the bars, in the alleys, and especially in the bathrooms. You don’t want to know about the bathrooms, you really don’t.

But that aside, there’s no denying it was a community. Clearly a lot more colourful than your standard middle - class suburb, most definitely not Pleasantville, but a community nonetheless. It was, and still is, home for many. As I sat in the bars, night after night, I got to know many of the habitués who haunted the hotels. Whether I loved them or loathed them, I can’t help but wonder what their fate will be with the looming and inevitable gentrification plans of Olympian proportions.

It’s difficult to imagine the Downtown Eastside without its familiar denizens—the three-fingered war vets, the embattled bartenders turning the clocks ahead on Welfare Wednesdays, the dealers, the strippers, the junkies and the prostitutes. You couldn’t ask for a better cast of characters than those who populate the Downtown Eastside. Hearing accounts of the Pickton trial, and especially reading the passionate posts by Baptie and VanKoll, brings back vivid memories and some snapshot moments from that Kafkaesque tableau.

Whereas the old - timers barely moved from their terrycloth-topped bar tables, the junkies were in constant motion, sliding in and out of the hotels, weaving through tables, conducting business. Out onto the streets to buy, sell or steal, and back into the bars to unload their merchandise. They hovered by your table, they twitched, they had the snake-oil salesman patter down. You couldn’t get through a night without being hit on repeatedly to buy, buy, BUY! To shell out some dough for the cause, feed the underground economy, purchase something so freshly hot, it would burn your fingerprints off to touch it. You name it, you could buy it—watches, clothes, shoes, books, records, radios, pens, hairspray—everything from the sublime (leather jackets) to the ridiculous (a roll of gauze, obviously pre-loved).

There you sit, back to the wall, sipping your pissy draft beer, enjoying the music, and suddenly you feel the familiar hovering presence that precedes a sales pitch. You turn your head and there, hunkered down by the side of your chair, your salesman. He is clutching something wrapped in blood-stained newspaper. “Wanna buy some meat?” he whispers, shakily unwrapping the newspaper to display a raw dripping hunk of animal flesh, freshly liberated from Save-On-Meats. “It’s a T-bone,” he urges. “Primo.” Naturally you demur. No really, that’s what you do. But it does make me wonder if, considering the current climate, pork roasts are a much tougher sell nowadays.

And lest we forget, no trip down memory lane—or memory skid road in this case—would be complete without the local working girls who daily braved the bad streets and bad dates. There was a bit of a symbiotic relationship between the musicians and the hookers, a camaraderie of sorts. We all got to know a few of the regular girls quite well, those who weren’t so ravaged by their lifestyle that they could still maintain a decent conversation, still be coy and charming, and would sometimes dance or shoot some stick with the boys in the band until duty called them back to the street. They were tough, sure, they had to be. But there was also a refreshing lack of pretence once they decided they liked and trusted you, and in many, a poignant fragility beneath the bravado and the track marks. I remember when we heard that one of our favourite streetwalkers had died, the rumour being she had thrown herself off the Patullo bridge. Her name was Casey and I’ll never forget her. She was a wise-cracking, intelligent and generous young woman. Your textbook hooker with a heart of gold. It was a sad day when we learned of Casey’s demise, even though sudden deaths were not uncommon in that milieu, albeit mostly associated with accidental or purposeful overdoses.

But serial murders? Well, that’s a whole other kettle of pigs. I can only imagine the turmoil and fear that must have been going on down there as, one by one, familiar faces were vanishing. Not being found in a hotel room, slumped in an alley, or washed up on shore, but vanishing completely, poof! A creepy pattern, no answers, and nobody listening. I was sad about Casey, but there was a body and a funeral, what psycho-babble refers to as “closure.” Closure has been a long time coming, if at all, for the families and friends of the missing/murdered Downtown Eastside women. Too long. And now, does a scrap of identifying DNA bring closure? Too CSI for comfort, maybe. How about a severed head in a rusty bucket? Too much disclosure? I don’t know. All I do know is that along with plenty of grief, there was equal anger. And there are plenty of places to direct it. At the cops for dropping the ball early on, at the pig farmer from PoCo, at basically anyone who put their hands over their ears, closed their eyes and hummed when confronted with early suspicions, fears, and possible suspects.

And our good ole boy, Willie, was indeed a suspect with the Downtown Eastside locals. If not Willie himself, then his pig farm was suspect as a possible crime scene, because this was no anonymous far-flung farm going about its business under the radar. This particular farm was Party Central , and everyone knew it. The partying took place in a low-ceilinged long building dubbed Piggy’s Palace. There was live music, there was dancing, there was always a pig roast (in retrospect, ew). Yep, Willie liked his parties. And who attended these soirees? Everyone. Not just bikers and hookers as some would like to think, but community leaders, business people, local politicians. An all-access pass to Piggy’s Palace. And being such a good community-minded citizen, Willie organized several of these shindigs as benefits for worthy causes.

Before the pig shit hit the fan, even I knew about the existence of Piggy’s Palace. Although no longer a regular visitor to the Downtown Eastside, I would hear about the pig farm from my musician buddies who had played out there. At the time, it was considered just another gig, since playing biker-type bashes and benefits was nothing out of the ordinary for the blues cats. Only later did the horror kick in for musicians who had played the Palace.

Two such musicians, Darren and Steve, had played Piggy’s roughly eight months before the story broke wide open. Their band had been enlisted as the entertainment for one of Willie’s infamous benefits. Now, brace yourself. Here comes the irony, and it ain’t subtle. They were playing a benefit for battered women. I’ll repeat that—for battered women. How’s that for a kick in the arse with a frozen gumboot? The mind reels. They could have been playing overtop of human remains. Worse, all those present who partook of the roast pig could have been eating human remains. In fact, after the nefarious goings-on were literally unearthed, a tainted meat advisory did circulate within the community. Darren, horrified when he learned what had lurked beneath the stage, says he managed to “redeem” himself later on by playing a fundraising benefit for the Missing Women’s Foundation. “It found me,” he said simply, gratefully.

And then the stories, the speculation , began in earnest. It was a runaway train and I recall rumours circulating that snuff films were being made out at the farm. Musicians who were still playing the Downtown Eastside bars were getting the goods straight off the street, and the big question was: How come we all seem to know where these women are going, and nobody else does? For his part, Steve met a woman who claimed to have escaped the farm with her life and her lingerie. “She told me he had picked her up—my impression was that it was Pickton—and he took her out to the farm and then he started getting rough with her. She split, wearing nothing but a bra and panties.” The lid on this particular Pandora’s box had only to be lifted a crack, and gruesome creatures began flying out all over the place.

It was hard to stand there with my fingers grabbing onto the chain link fence, my forehead resting on the cold wire, thinking, “How can a segment of the population be so invisible that they can suffer these atrocities, and no one except the dirt I am looking at heard them scream?”
—Trisha Baptie

So I sit here in Toronto now, reading accounts of the trial like everyone else. I am not as close to it anymore, but my thoughts are with those who are. There is no place in Toronto like the Downtown Eastside, at least no place so concentrated. There are pockets, naturally, and as I walk amongst the junkies and dealers, the prostitutes, the mentally ill, I remember all their Western counterparts I had become familiar with for a brief period of time. Of the two cities, Toronto is supposed to be the scary degenerate, Vancouver the pretty-boy health freak. But Vancouver’s Downtown Eastside rivals any of Toronto’s mean streets and, by all accounts, it’s only gotten worse since the days I frequented the low track. More organized crime, more crack, a tougher, meaner, more unforgiving place.

But not for long, if the powers-that-be have their way. There’s no doubt the area can use some cleaning up, the old hotels could and should be brought up to code for safety’s sake if nothing else. And that’s all fine and good, except that most long-time residents won’t get the benefit of it. Many will be displaced, despite assurances of alternate low-income housing. If you actually believe that enough affordable housing will be in place by the time the Olympics thunders into town like the running of the bulls (or the running of the bullshit), then you should seriously consider a career in politics.

Yes, the Downtown Eastside residents are apparently expendable. If this were an episode of the original Star Trek series, they’d all be wearing red shirts. And if I wanted to be really cynical and outrageous, I would suggest that some water-cooler gossips might go so far as to say Pickton did them a favour by getting a head start on the ghetto cleansing.

To borrow from Dickens, it appears to be “the best of times and the worst of times” in Vancouver right now. Indeed, it is a tale of two cities—the sparkling postcard image displayed on Olympics tourist brochures, and the pestilent, roach-ridden Downtown Eastside—both of which have gained international attention. Unfortunately for the women working the latter streets, it’s been only the worst of times. If they were lucky enough to have escaped the clutches of a serial killer, many of them now face eviction from their home turf. Insult to injury, ladies.

I’m glad I’m not around for all the drama. I don’t need to be bombarded by the West Coast media with the grisly details of Willie’s trial and I really don’t need daily Olympics hype in my face. But I do not want to forget the lost women, whom, granted, I didn’t know personally, but who led lives that mirrored those of many I had befriended. So this is what I’ll do—I’ll head down to Parkdale, find one of the sketchier bars, have a beer with some of Toronto’s lowlife, and remember the good old days in the Downtown Eastside. As a nod to Jeremy, Baptie and VanKoll, I will raise my glass, and say aloud the names: Sereena Abotsway, Mona Wilson, Andrea Joesbury, Brenda Wolfe, Georgina Papin and Marnie Frey. And maybe, by the Year of the Rat, they’ll get some justice. Maybe we’ll stop hearing their screams.

Copyright © Bonnie Bowman, 2007

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Christmas Future

The holiday drinks have been released at Starbucks and I’m beginning to see the first signs of the Christmas shopping season. Ugh. The idea of wandering through malls searching for meaningful, yet affordable gifts for my family makes me slightly nauseous.

I love the idea of Christmas, but in practice it just seems to be stress, pressure and expectations… for what? For another pile of stuff. I’m dreading it already.

Then I discovered Christmas Future. What a brilliant idea!

The idea is that instead of spending hundreds of dollars on presents this year we can take some of that money and refocus it. We have the power to change the world and end poverty. That sounds like a damn good Christmas present to me.

“ChristmasFuture is about change. Fundamental, meaningful, planet-shifting change. We are a passionate movement of people empowering a non-profit organization that advances us – all of us – everyday closer to eradicating extreme poverty.”

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

it just sucks.



I don’t want The Drake to close. I feel like I’m losing a friend. What I am losing is options. I’m losing a safe environment in which to work. I’m losing security and choice. They don’t fucking care if they run strippers out of business. They don’t fucking care if our choices are taken away, if we’re forced to make harder decisions. They don’t care if we end up on the street.

It’s just another reminder of how disposable the City of Vancouver thinks we are.

Bastards!
I’m going to cry again.

They bought everything—the stage, the bar, the poles… everything! Someone tell me what the city needs with a stripper stage? Maybe they’ll run us out of town and use the brass poles for the fucking Olympics.

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Thursday, April 19, 2007

I am NOT collateral damage!!

Well Suzy and I went to the police board meeting, made our presentation and had a brief meeting with Superintendent Steve Sweeney. Sigh… I think I’m finally coming down from the adrenaline rush and the emotional overload. It was intense. I’m trying to remember the conversation before I forget too much.

Ok basic points:

Exotic Dancers are not the target. It’s the Gang Violence Task Force and their target is organized crime.

I’ve unwittingly become part of the underworld of Vancouver by being a stripper and joining the ranks of sex industry workers. But the thing is- I’m a nerd. I go to work. I get naked. I go home. I’m totally oblivious to the underground culture that the Superintendent is referring to.

I was told that the people they’re after hang out in those types of establishments (ie strip clubs) and that there’s a gang war brewing and apparently it’s going to erupt one of these days in a Vancouver strip club WTF!?! So even though I haven’t seen any of these very bad people they’re referring to, and even though security at all of the clubs is excellent, apparently it’s very important that the Gang Violence Task Force is on hand to stop… something.

Sigh… I don’t know, and frankly I don’t care what internal underground politics could be brewing in the background. I need my job.

Part of the conversation:

Sweeney: They’re putting pressure on the strip clubs because of the gangs. Three gang members died 6 months ago.
Suzy: Not as fast as we are.
Ryann: In strip clubs?
Sweeney: No, but those type of people are known to frequent those establishments.
Ryann: But it’s coming out of my pocket. I’m the one affected.
Sweeney: That’s not our intention.
Ryann: But that’s what is happening.
Suzy: How does barging into dressing rooms fight gang violence?
Ryann: How does harassing customers combat gang violence? What about barging into VIP rooms?
Suzy: I was offered a ride along. I want to go with the Gang Violence task force when they patrol strip clubs.
Sweeney: Well The Gang Violence Task Force has temporarily been stood down.
Suzy: What does that mean?
Sweeney: That might not be possible.
Suzy: Driving sex industry workers out of safe work environments can’t happen.

Ryann: We don’t care about your war. I care about my job, my tuition, my income. I care about feeling safe at work.
Suzy: Sex industry workers are not a reasonable casualty in your war.
Sweeney: Sometimes that happens. You guys might be the ones hurt by this for a while.
Ryann: We’re talking about my job!
Sweeney: I’ll read your letters and look into seeing if there is a better way to get things done.

… and so on… That’s about all I remember right now. I’m sure I’ve missed points.

If there is a war coming like the Vancouver Police Department believes to be true, then why aren’t they protecting the dancers, warning the girls, and taking steps to ensure everyone’s safety? Why are they watching the shows, leering at the dancers, barging into dressing rooms? Why are undercover officers buying private dances? Why are they monitoring private dances so carefully? Why are they harassing customers and dancers? Why are they taking away safe work options for women?

I’m estimating that I’ve experienced a 30% decrease in my income in Vancouver in the past 5 months since this mandate started. That’s my savings. That’s my future. I can’t imagine the Superintendent sitting in front of an elementary teacher and saying “you are a reasonable casualty”. So why the fuck am I disposable!?!?

This whole thing is a mess. I pray something changes. This current agenda is putting hundreds of women at risk. I’m just one of them. I don’t fear a war. I fear unemployment. I’m not collateral damage nor am I a reasonable fucking casualty!!!

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Wish me luck

I’m kinda freaking out. The Police Board meeting is tomorrow and even though I’ve been involved in politics since high school, sat on steering committees, talked at city counsel meetings, presented in front of numerous colleagues and superiors, organized international events, and done media relations more than once… That was my old life, my real life.

I used to speak from a position of well-educated ambitious young woman, and while that hasn’t changed, now I’m speaking as “The Stripper” and I’m so afraid of the judgment and condemnation. I don’t want to stand in a board room and put myself in the spotlight as the “other”. I liked being admired and respected in the community. I miss believing the police would protect me.

Something has to be done. Someone has to speak for the dancers in Vancouver. I know I can’t just hide in my house hoping someone else will. I know I’m already that voice for numerous women, but I’m scared.

I don’t like inviting people to attack me. I don’t like walking into situations where people will judge me and introducing myself as “The Stripper”, but that is precisely what I’m going to do tomorrow.

Wish me luck… Wish me the courage to stand up for our rights, and the strength to speak. I pray for the guidance to say the right thing.

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Monday, April 16, 2007

Vancouver Police Department pressure on strip clubs

I doubt I’ve mentioned it before, but for a number of months the Vancouver Police Department in partnership with the Liquor Board has been putting pressure on the local strip clubs. They’ve been in the No5 every single day, including photographing tattoos and scanning license plates on occasion. The Gang Violence Task Force is making regular visits to Brandi’s and The Drake. Private dancing has been shut down at the Cecil. Basically it’s a mess.

I suspect that it’s part of a pre-Olympic clean up mandate, but in a city that professes harm reduction it’s pretty absurd and it’s making my life rather difficult. A group of dancers and industry people have joined together to put pressure on the police to basically back-off and let us work in peace. This is no longer normal police checks. It has become outright harassment. On Wednesday a group of us will be appearing before the Police Board to voice our concerns. This is my letter…

April 15, 2007

To Whom It May Concern:

I understand that very few people understand the day-to-day reality of being a stripper in Vancouver, so maybe I can help illuminate our industry.

Stage dancers are booked through agencies and paid by the bar per show. Keeping entertainers on the stage is a sizeable expense incurred by the clubs each week. When working as a stage dancer income is made on stage. No shows, no pay. Some stage girls sell private dances to subsidize their income, others choose not to. A contract with the bar is made on a weekly basis and the women work Monday to Saturday at that particular bar. Some clubs will have the women do 3 shows per day, others open for lunch and a shift can be up to 8 shows a day with up to 13 hours between first and last show. It’s an extremely time intensive career and every week the dancers are required to change bars, hence the term “working the circuit”. Working on stage does not allow for flexibility or personal time. It’s often a 12 hour day, a 6-days-a-week-travel-on-Sunday kind of job.

Very few women have the flexibility to travel out of town for weeks at a time, thereby leaving their families and other responsibilities. Yet there are currently only five strip clubs operating in Vancouver: Cecil, Penthouse, Drake, No5, and Brandi’s.

Working exclusively on stage generally requires a lot of traveling and weeks away from home. A lot of women in Vancouver choose to work as VIP girls selling private dances instead. The advantage of VIP work is stability and being able to have a “home bar”. VIP girls sleep in their own bed at night, are able to set their own hours, and work around their study schedules and personal and family obligations.

Recently dancing in Vancouver has become somewhat of a challenge.

I’ve danced in over 50 different strip clubs across Canada but Vancouver is home. I’ve been lucky in that I have had the freedom to travel, so when Vancouver clubs aren’t doing well I’m able to leave town. But with school coming up in September I’m extremely concerned that I won’t be able to make a living and go to school. I’m worried that I may be forced to sacrifice my education in order to make a living. I won’t be able to work the regular stage shifts while in school. I won’t be able to leave town, nor will I be able to work 6 days a week and still maintain my GPA. Come September I’ll be working as a VIP girl, and the way things are right now- that worries me.

Exotic dancing is a legal profession within Canada. Whether certain groups feel it is immoral is irrelevant. Women are going to dance, to feed their children, to further their education, to travel and explore, to finance their life. Whatever personal reasons lead an individual into this industry it is lawful, although marginalized.

Exploitation is a very real problem in our world. There are many circumstances, in many countries that can lead to the sexual exploitation of women. Women forced into prostitution, women finding themselves in a foreign country without support. History is full of stories of lost or forgotten women coming to harm. In Vancouver we need only look as far as the tragedy ensued at the pig farm to see what can happen when very real people fall between the cracks.

Pretending something does not exist will not make it go away. Only through awareness and openness can an issue be addressed. There will always be industries and fragments of society that do not meet the approval of mainstream expectations or comfort zones. However, the persons within it are valuable human beings deserving of fair treatment and dignity.

If the goal is to decrease the amount of women sexually exploited within Canada, then the women in question must have full access to their rights. The following is taken from the Universal Declaration of Human Rights. http://www.un.org/Overview/rights.html

Everyone has the right to life, liberty and security of person.

No one shall be held in slavery or servitude; slavery and the slave trade shall be prohibited in all their forms.

No one shall be subjected to torture or to cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment or punishment

Everyone has the right to recognition everywhere as a person before the law.

Everyone has the right to an effective remedy by the competent national tribunals for acts violating the fundamental rights granted him by the constitution or by law.

Article 23.

(1) Everyone has the right to work, to free choice of employment, to just and favourable conditions of work and to protection against unemployment.

(2) Everyone, without any discrimination, has the right to equal pay for equal work.

(3) Everyone who works has the right to just and favourable remuneration ensuring for himself and his family an existence worthy of human dignity, and supplemented, if necessary, by other means of social protection.

(4) Everyone has the right to form and to join trade unions for the protection of his interests.

Without lawful protection of these rights, there is no way to monitor or protect them. Without the safeguard of authorized employment there is no way to shelter the women in question from the potential exploitation. Blinders will not stop an industry. Unawareness will not stop women from working within the Exotic Entertainment Industry. These women are daughters, sisters, mothers, and friends. Those persons within an environment or industry that is often hidden from the mainstream require extra attention and consideration. Everyone deserves a voice and avenue through which to seek protection of their rights.

The reality is that I no longer feel safe in the Vancouver strip clubs. The employees at the bars are excellent, and take good care of the women working in their establishment. I love my job, but I don’t feel safe because of the Vancouver Police Department. The police have been into every single bar I’ve worked in the past few months.

I feel targeted, judged, criminalized, and condemned. I feel it’s very unprofessional for the police to come into the bar and watch my stage show. It makes me uncomfortable and their attitude has made it very clear that they are NOT there to protect me.

I’m afraid to sell private dances for fear of being trapped by undercover officers, or barged in on by patrolling police. I don’t feel safe. No one feels comfortable in a strip club when police officers are staring at them accusingly. We need our patrons in the bar enjoying the entertainment and buying drinks in order to pay dancers to be on stage. Our customers don’t deserve to be harassed nor have their tattoos photographed while enjoying a beer after work. The deliberate attempts to drive customers out of the bar are affecting my income and as a result I’m not making enough in Vancouver to save for school.

I have the right to work with dignity in the career I choose. Leering officers walking into change rooms and VIP rooms does not protect my dignity. The police presence is disturbing and degrading and deliberately trying to force my unemployment.

I have a Bachelor of Arts Degree and I’m intending on doing a Masters Degree at UBC. I’m still carrying student loan debt from my undergrad and without dancing I will not be able to finance the remainder of my education.

All I ask is that my dignity and my career be respected by the police officers in the city of Vancouver. I am not a criminal, and I should not be made to feel degraded or like a lesser human being for selling a private dance or getting naked for a living. All I ask is for the right to go work in a safe environment without fearing personal and financial repercussions inflicted by the police.

Sincerely,


Ryann Rain.
Exotic Dancer. Vancouver.

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Monday, March 05, 2007

ED4C4 Thank you

I’m exhausted!
I’m also famous. Urgh. Well if anyone didn’t know I’m a Peeler- they do now. CTV carried the story on both the 6:00 and 11:00 news. Global picked it up at 11:00.

The day itself feels like a very long, very exhausting dream. It’s been overwhelming and exciting, and wonderful, and challenging all at the same time. I’m very proud to be able to call myself a member of The Naked Truth and the exotic dance industry. What an incredible community!!!

I want to personally thank everyone that came out us last night. The support has been tremendous. A HUGE THANK YOU to all the women that donated shows last night. We had 20 different girls get up on that stage out of the goodness of their hearts. Ashley came all the way from Toronto, and Alena joined us from Edmonton. I also want to send out a special thank you to Lady Sable for making the trip down.

There are other donations still to come in, but last night we raised $7705

I’m exhausted, but I’ll be back at the bar in an hour… It’s Monday and I have a full week of work ahead of me at The Drake.

Thank you everyone. Every dancer I know has experienced the stigma associated with this job at some point in their career. The judgment and negativity can follow you for years… When the Breast Cancer Society turned us down I was hurt. I wasn’t angry, or bitter. I was hurt to be reminded of how harsh some people view us, view me, simply because I get naked.

Even now, being inundated with positive energy and love, I’m still waiting for the backlash. I’m still waiting for the hate mail and the condemnation. That’s how deep the stigma runs.

Thank you to Rethink for accepting our money, and openly supporting our compassion and desire to make a difference. We’ve all been touched by cancer and if I think about it too much tears well in my eyes. Cancer has broken so many hearts in my life, and broken my own too often. Thank you to the media for covering this event in such a positive and respectful manner. Thank you for validating our humanity to the masses who may not have thought too much about strippers before.

“Our beauty lies deeper than what we expose to the masses on stages all over the world. We are strong, independent, powerful women who deserve to be heard, not just seen.” Trina Ricketts.

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Saturday, February 17, 2007

ED4C4 letter from Annie

Dear friends, family, and colleagues,

The Naked Truth presents the Fourth Annual Exotic Dancers for Cancer – a stripathon fundraiser – on March 4, 2007 from 4 p.m. to midnight at The Drake Showlounge, 606 Powell Street, Vancouver. Cost is $10 at the door. There will be a silent auction, door prizes, t-shirts for sale, and live exotic entertainment.

This year we made the news across Canada when the Breast Cancer Society of Canada (BCSC) declined our donation. We were disappointed they turned us down and really didn’t expect it since they accepted our donation wholeheartedly last year, being quoted in the news about how cancer does not discriminate. Our decision to go public with their decision to not accept our donation this year had more to do with finding a charity than exposing the organization. But what happened could not have been predicted!

News articles like this one prompted an overwhelming response from people touched by cancer.

Outraged community members from all over the world expressed their support for Exotic Dancers for Cancer and disgust at the treatment we had experienced. For us, it was par for the course. We’re used to having organizations turn us away. In fact, the BCSC had been the FIRST cancer organization WILLING to accept our donation.

Due to the incredible publicity, we had several cancer organizations come forward willing to accept our donation (including some who have declined us in the past) and many more non-cancer related organizations. We discussed our options as a community and chose Rethink Breast Cancer, a national, registered charity that focuses on women under 40 years of age through education about risk factors and early detection. They also provide training grants for innovate breast cancer researchers and have started funding support programs for young women with breast cancer.

Rethink www.rethinkbreastcancer.com seemed like a perfect fit because this event is in memory of Jocelyne, who was first diagnosed with Breast Cancer at age 34 and later died at the age of 40. They are also known for their edgier campaigns, including www.checkoutmybreasts.com.

Please join us for Exotic Dancers for Cancer on March 4, at the Drake. Partial proceeds will go to Rethink with the rest going to Lady Sable, a former exotic dancer who is fighting ovarian cancer for the second time.

We still need items for our silent auction – so please contact me at http://by118fd.bay118.hotmail.msn.com/cgi-bin/compose?curmbox=00000000-0000-0000-0000-000000000001&a=5ae447435e684aa35d0f30d039ed33118f37b19c59913098d59b60984f16cbcc&mailto=1&to=annie@nakedtruth.ca&msg=C996247C-89B7-4B44-9D51-76F2A4648F08&start=0&len=559282&src=&type=x if you can donate towards our fundraising efforts. In the meantime I will leave you with this short video – we’ve gotten permission to show it at our event http://aabc.org.uk/campaign/dancer.html

Hope to see you there! Please forward this email to others you know, and hang the attached poster at your place of work, if possible.

Love Trina aka Annie Temple


Letters from cancer charities found here:

Letters from non-cancer related charities found here:

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

ED4C4 media circus

For readers that are curious about the media attention we've recieved...
we have letters to the editor. Trina setting the record straight, a hilarious cartoon in the province. Another article in Orato and the cancer blog

There has been an overwhelming response.

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Breast Cancer Society of Canada doesn't want our money

Well I’m back in Vancouver and it’s that time of year again. The 4th Annual Exotic Dancers for Cancer will be held at the Drake Show lounge on March 4, 2007.

I’ve been a little out of touch lately, geographically that is. So I haven’t been participating in the media circus that this event has become. Another dancer came across this video while researching, for obvious reasons I’m using it as an example of why we’re doing this. http://aabc.org.uk/campaign/dancer.html

The Breast Cancer Society of Canada chose NOT to accept our money this year. We received a letter saying… “We will have to decline your kind offer as we have certain major donors that are not in favour of this connection. Believe me you are not the only fundraising event that we have had to decline accepting proceeds from. This decision came as a result of donor disgruntlement and together with the Board of Directors we have decided not to accept any donations from what donors consider controversial sources.”

I have a lot of mixed feelings about our money being refused. On one hand I want to scream and rage at the blatant discrimination. They don’t want our money. Strippers are immoral? What about the corporate men I entertain every day? What about the men who pay me to stare at my pussy? Why is their money welcome and ours isn’t? I want to be surprised, but really I wasn’t. I know it’s not fair, and I know it’s bullshit, but part of me can understand why someone wouldn’t want to intentionally subject themselves to the level of stigma associated with my job.

The media and the public reacted far more intensely than I did. I’m glad. We put out the call to find a cancer charity that wanted our money, and were overwhelmed by the response. Hundreds of emails can in, almost all in support of us. After sorting through everything we finally decided on Rethink Breast Cancer.

Rethink is a national, registered charity that focuses on women under 40 years of age through education about risk factors and early detection. They also provide training grants for innovate breast cancer researchers and have started funding support programs for young women with breast cancer. http://www.rethinkbreastcancer.com/
We’re very happy with our choice and the event looks to be our biggest yet. “This event is in memory of a woman who was first diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 34,” says Trina Ricketts, organizer of the event and founder of nakedtruth.ca – a resource and advocacy website for exotic dancers. “For this reason and so many others, Rethink just seemed like a great fit.”

I’ll talk a bit more about the event as it draws near, but mark on your calendar friends. It’s gonna be one hell of a party!!

March 4, 2007
4pm-midnight
The Drake Exotic Show Lounge
606 Powell St. Vancouver, BC

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Thursday, April 20, 2006

Duke Rape

I haven’t touched it yet, but I am now realizing that I have an obligation to comment on this situation. The Duke Rape case is horrific.

Sadly I am not surprised at the events. I watch men. I know what a group of drunken men with “Lord of the Flies” group dynamics are capable of under the right circumstances. I know that as a “Stripper” in the eyes of many, we become the “Other”. I am aware that when functioning in a society that dichotomizes good girls from bad girls and only offers protection and support to one segment, that permissive abuse can be excused.

There is no question. There is no credibility to question. Trust me; she has nothing to gain by subjecting herself to this intolerance and hate. Trust me; all she wanted was her money to pay tuition, to pay her bills, to live. Trust me; she did not want to be raped.

It is 2006 and yet it is national debate south of the boarder whether a woman deserved to be raped. It is 2006 and so many are so eager to separate the good girls from the bad. If it was a young blonde daughter of a senator there would be no question. There would be uproar, not debate. There would be no question if a young black stripper was asking for it, if she deserved it.

I am shocked, appalled and sickened by the determination and vocalization of so many people to blame the victim.

www.hogonice.com/
http://rightwingsparkle.blogspot.com/

Just to name a few… It’s those people that inadvertently condone and encourage violence against women. It’s those voices that create an atmosphere of hate and abuse.

STOP BLAMING THE VICTIM!!! You stupid arrogant cock-sucking hate spreading self-righteous scrotum licking shit diving self-loathing fear-based ignorant cunt hating TRASH!!!

She is a stripper! Damn straight she is a stripper. For those that perhaps misunderstand the definition of stripper, I am going to elaborate.
A stripper is a woman who has chosen to make a living taking her clothes off.
A stripper is a woman who works, who pays her taxes, who does her best to support herself and her family.
A stripper is a daughter
A stripper is often a mother.
A stripper is a friend, confidante, roll model, advocate, and sister.

I take my clothes off. Should I have no rights? Should I have no dignity? Should I have no choice?

I am a stripper.
Do I deserve to be attacked and raped?


Fucking ignorant cowards.



On the smarter side…
http://redstatefeminist.blogspot.com/
http://harpowoman.blogspot.com/
and my own… http://ryannreflections.blogspot.com/2006/03/rape.html

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Thursday, February 23, 2006

United we Dance

I get Naked for Charity

Okay people, Exotic Dancers for Cancer is only a few days away. The stars aligned and I have the weekend off. YAY!!! I’m flying into Vancouver for the event. I will be donating a show, and having a blast. (tentative show time 6pm)

I AM SOOOO EXCITED!!!

Silent auction includes items such as: Canucks tickets, symphony tickets, spa packages, Molson Canadian gear, tattoo time, glamour photo shoots, Harley Davidson gear, and a slave for a month.

… and much more… Pole dancing lessons, amateur hour, door prizes, and continuous naked ladies from 4pm on…

Come say HI!!! Come out and support the cause.

http://www.canada.com/theprovince/news/story.html?id=c81e4ee6-bd2d-4a83-bdcf-15638e12a2c1&k=81638

It has been a whirlwind week, and I’m sure by Monday I will be exhausted. I fly out tomorrow morning, and everything seems to be coming together. A bit of late night, last minute graphic design work (see banner below), and a lot of running around… three shows tonight then I drive to Calgary to catch my plane… bright and freaking early tomorrow.




I can’t wait to meet all the girls I’ve been working with to organize this for so many weeks and months. I can’t wait to see my friends. I can’t wait to absorb the energy. I can’t wait to see what we can raise.

The Drake Showroom. Vancouver. Sunday February 26, 2006. 4pm-midnight.

And now I need to shower, pack, eat, run, possibly scream…

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Saturday, February 04, 2006

Exotic Dancers For Cancer

It's almost time for the Third Annual Exotic Dancers for Cancer Event.

Where: The Drake Show lounge. 606 Powell St. Vancouver.
When: Sunday, February 26, 2006 from 4pm till midnight

In a few short weeks a multitude of beautiful naked ladies will be volunteering in a Strip-a-thon for Charity. There will be a silent auction, as well as door prizes, t-shirts, and a great deal of side attractions to keep everyone entertained for hours. I've heard rumours of amateur hour, aquire a slave for a month, body cages, tattoos, and various other items.

For the first time in history, the Breast Cancer Society of Canada has agreed to accept our money. In the past we have struggled with finding charities to accept the proceeds. Donations from the Exotic Entertainment Industry are often not welcome. This is a HUGE accomplishment, and I am so proud of Annie Temple for making it happen.

As Annie wrote in her letter to the BCSC, “I would like to offer our donation to your organization from this year’s Exotic Dancers for Cancer which is planned for February 26, 2006. I am not sure if you feel that it would be unethical to accept money from exotic dancers as we have heard this from other organizations in the past. I would like to assure you that all the women involved in the event are participating out of their own desire to make a difference. No one can argue that breast cancer affects anyone of any occupation. Exotic dancing is a legal occupation. We pay our taxes and we vote. We are mothers, daughters, wives, and sisters. We dance naked to make a living, but in all other ways, we are no different from any other women.”

One small step for Strippers, one large chunk of change for breast cancer.

Call for donations. I will be on the phones collecting donations for door-prizes, as well items for the silent auction. If anyone would like to donate, please email me. ryannrain@hotmail.com

Donations may be made online through paypal at www.nakedtruth.ca. Click donations. memo "dancers for cancer" under 'payment for'

If you are Vancouver on Feb 26, come join The Naked Truth girls, and all the supporters as we make history, and whole lot of money for a damn good cause!!


The history of Dancers for Cancer can be found at http://www.nakedtruth.ca/forum/default.asp?CAT_ID=13

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

prayer and porn

I saw a special on CNN the other day on JC’s Girls. http://www.jcsgirls.com/ The CNN angle of course was ‘Fight Porn, love God’. So reminiscent of the “Save a Stripper” philosophy I was immediately and passionately infuriated. Apparently these beautiful Barbies travel around to strip clubs and adult entertainment conventions to spread the word of God and hand out bibles. They are ex-strippers and ex-porn stars. They seek to rescue women in the industry, and the men that feed it.

I know there are many women in unfortunate circumstances. I know that some choices can lead to addictions. I know that many people suffer from low self-esteem. I know that at times people need help, but I also know that help is generally not accepted until someone is ready.
I admit I have only paid lip-service to this particular site, and I have not explored their individual attitudes. I do not know if JC’s Girls are self-righteous and narrow in their desire to help, or if that was the CNN influence.

Controversial or not, I believe that the adult entertainment industry is an important aspect of our society. I believe that fantasy is healthy, and that sex is not immoral. A consensual adult exploring visual imagery and desire has nothing to do with church.
There is a difference between someone who is addicted to porn, or stripping to finance a drug addiction, and the majority of patrons and dancers I encounter. I understand the industry varies a great deal, and that what I am accustomed to in Canada may be a very different experience from Vegas.

Situations are unique, as are people. We are spiritual, and we are passionate. The need to believe, to pray, to belong to something bigger and more powerful than ourselves is deep-rooted and world-wide. A spiritual experience, an individual relationship with God, a faith strong in love, acceptance, and forgiveness is a real human need. We need faith.
We are also material creatures, with earthy desires and needs. Passion shared may be profound and sexually explosive. We are beings of free-will. We are individual people, on a unique path. Our choices and trials do not diminish our worth. Human sexuality is dynamic and fascinating. The fervor can be electric, and the afterglow religious. Sex can fulfill needs that are as elusive and personal as religion.

The post-modern excuse that everything is relative is frustrating. The idea that there is no right or wrong is provoking. However, to shed judgment in a black or white fashion is equally exasperating. There is no shame in enjoying the naked body. There is no shame in getting naked.

What of needs that cannot be met within a relationship? What of the desire to enjoy beauty and sexuality? What of sexual needs that exist independently of a partner? If one person is unable or unwilling to fulfill the yearnings of the other, do those desires become “dirty” and “sinful”?
I know of no perfect people. I know of no friends without faults or vices. I know of no perfect relationships. I know people who make mistakes, who make poor decisions, who grow and learn and experience.

The human experience may be many things, why isolate prayer from porn?

I am not the one to judge.

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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Minority

Prime Minister Harper… and so Canada begins 2006 with a Conservative minority government. After having spent so much energy on this campaign I feel I should comment. Yet I’m at a loss for words. Alberta is blue. The ENTIRE province is conservative. Sigh… not a surprise.

The NDP did well, 29 seats across Canada. Jack Layton, and his wife Olivia Chow were both elected in their ridings. My local NDP candidate was re-elected with a lead of almost 10,000 votes. Libby Davies retains her hold on Vancouver east.

Paul Martin has resigned. The Liberals will enter a leadership race immediately. I wonder if Belinda will run… first elected as a Conservative, she retained her MP position as a Liberal.

The Bloc holds 51 seats and is in a position of extreme leverage. The only independent elected was a radio-host out of Quebec City, André Arthur.

It’s too early to predict how our government will function after today. In a minority situation everyone needs to buddy up and work together, in theory. Harper does NOT have enough seats to push anything through without support. Everyone at that table has different priorities. I’m curious to see how things will play out.

But today, after the election, I'm feeling subdued. The Liberals threw the election, as needed to happen. They need to rebuild. The results are as expected, the speeches well delivered, the shuffle underway. Now that the gag order has been lifted from the Conservative candidates, I wonder how many Canadians can be shocked, offended, and angered.

I wonder how they will team up. I wonder what priorities will come to light now that the campaign is over. I hope the changes respect and cherish Canadians. I hope the poorest of our people are not set up to shoulder the struggle. I hope the short leash is kept reined in, and Canada does not retract its commitments. I hope faith and fear to not play a dominate role.

CON 124
LIB 103
BQ 51
NDP 29
IND 1

For all the details… good, bad, and the ugly… http://www.cbc.ca/canadavotes/

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Sunday, January 22, 2006

Missing Sarah

I just finished reading “Missing Sarah” by Maggie de Vries. It is the story of Sarah de Vries, one of the Vancouver’s missing women whose DNA was found on Robert Pickton’s farm in Port Coquitlam. I cannot do justice to her story, nor to the beautiful and compelling voice of Maggie. But I can share pieces with you. I can hope that you too will pick up this book and open your heart to this vulnerable and tragic story. It is only one woman’s story; the DNA of over thirty women was found on that farm.

This book found its way to me just a week before the trial is set to begin. The power of her story is indescribable.

If you could look inside my mind,
Would you like the woman you find?
Would you understand me?
Would you want to love me?

Look deep inside my windows,
Past the mass hysteria of confusion.
Look deeper, look farther.
Now look, look harder,
Past the illusion, past the disillusion,
Past the hurt, anger and self-retribution.
If you can, what do you see?

Don’t look if you don’t care
For you won’t find me there.
Like a child, beaten and raped,
I’ll run and hide for my safety’s sake.

True love, true hate, I know what they are
My defenses are weak,
My wishful thinking leaves me wounded,
Down on my knees, begging, pleading.

Please, God, one, just one of them must really care.
-- Sarah de Vries

I did not know Sarah. I have never experienced her choices. I have never known her pain. I have never felt that desperation. But I am a woman. Over the past few days, lying in my hotel in Campbell River I have learned her story. I stopped packing for a few moments to finish the story, to learn the outcome that would never change. Sarah is dead, and no amount of compassion can change that reality. She was not a fictional character. She was a living, breathing human being with love, pain, hope and despair. I lay on my bed, staring up at the ceiling allowing the anger and sadness to wash through me. Somehow her story must be incorporated into my psyche.

I packed my makeup. I zipped my suitcase. I gathered my bedding. I hugged my care bear. I walked over to the bar. I changed into a costume and for 18 min I smiled and teased. I collected my pay.

Then I drove, lost in my thoughts, through the darkness, away from one bar, on my way to the next. I do not sell sex. I sell the idea of sex. If a patron so much as touches me, or tries to kiss my hand I react with anger and disgust. Immediately I want to wash away all evidence and memory of the encounter. I want to say I cannot imagine what Sarah felt turning tricks, but at least to some lesser degree, I can imagine. The using, the objectifying, the sex tool attitude, the disrespect and dehumanizing comments… I know how some men look at women they deem ‘lesser’. I see how easily the respect melts into misogynistic lust.

“They think that because they pay for you they can treat you like a sex tool. They think because they paid for it, you aren’t going to tell anybody. They think it doesn’t hurt you inside, but it does. They think because you’re a hooker you don’t feel any emotions, you don’t feel any pain. You are just doing it for the money, and you don’t feel anything, but you do. I’m not just speaking for myself; I’m speaking for everybody else. You know, they do. They are human, they feel, and just because you are paying them money doesn’t mean you can treat them like total shit, because they have feelings too.” (p. 109)

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